contemplating happiness~

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Just a passing thought when I was sitting here on my windowsill, counting the stars~

 

They say that the rainbow will come after the rain.

But what am I to do when I am stuck with my rain for all eternity?

They say that the rainbow will come after the rain.

But what am I to do when my rain has ended, and my rainbow has yet to come?

They say that the rainbow will come after the rain.

But what am I to do when I get so confused that I cannot see whether it is raining or not?

They say that the rainbow will come after the rain.

But what am I to do when I want my rain to last forever, because if the rainbow comes, I would have to forget you and move on?

~can’t you guess?

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To you, the person who changed my life.

Have you ever wondered what it is behind my decision to leave you?

Have you ever asked yourself the reason why I changed my mind?

How come i wanted to stay, then one second later I could not wait to leave?

Have you?


Well, here it is.

It’s you.


Because you made me lie. I never liked that.

Because you made me fight my heart. I was not me anymore.

Because you made me betray trusts. I lost every faith I had on myself.

Because I kept on trusting you, and you kept on disappointing me.

Because slowly, I started to resent you. And I never want to feel that way.

I want us to be just like we used to be.

So forgive me, ‘sorry’ is not enough anymore.

I’m leaving.


aureliasp,

written when she was supposed to do her exam 😛